Day 14

I woke up late today, again, and I had a similar dream to the one on day 11 I think, it was about him. Thinking about it now... I think at one point I was just thinking with my eyes closed. So I dreamed I had gone to his house, cut up pieces of brightly coloured cardboard saying "sorry" and hung them from his oak tree. Then, on the hedge alongside the road he travels through, there were banners saying "I miss you". And then at the end of the day we would go to this place that he says he goes to to take pictures and... then I woke up. My dreams tend to end quite ironically these days.

Signed onto messenger and he talked to me. I'm happier now.

Hm, I hadn't thought about my mother in a while now. I've been talking to my dad recently and he tells me she is fine, he asks me who took her to Boston the other day, I say I don't know, but also ommit I have an idea who might have... Maybe it's time I called her instead of waiting for her to call me. We haven't talked since she said I needed to change and there is the practical concern of whether or not she still wants me over for Christmas. I think this and that are two different things though, she wouldn't just tell me to go spend Christmas under a bridge, I guess I should check, just in case. :S

He is away. I should go as well and eat something. I don't know what's worse: not talking to him at all, or talking to him and then not hearing from him when he goes away or something. Probably the latter. Ok, I'm gonna reheat last night's chicken. I managed to get 4 portions out of last night's roast chicken so I won't have to cook any time soon, which is good, at least this way I'll eat something. BRB

Back. The chicken is still half cold, but it's cool! I watched Yumeiro Patissiére and Amano Ichigo made custard pudding today. They practically told you lots of tips to make it: the caramel must be amber colour, although some people prefer it a bit bitter (like me) and u must stir in the sugar and egg yolks in big circular motions so the milk doesn't froth and make little cavities in the pudding when it goes in the oven to be baked (like my mother's and other restaurants in Portugal). I might have a go at making one when I've finished my essay. *sigh* I miss him. And I wish my mother wouldn't be like this, at least my dad is blissfully ignorant so I talk to him and he doesn't have to feel weird or anything.

Oh he said something!


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*sigh* This is why I installed Ubuntu (as well) - Yesterday I installed Ubuntu btw, I didn't/don't like the Gnu loader so I said I didn't want it installed, thinking, stupidly, that Windows Vista's boot loader would cover Ubuntu - it didn't. So now, I have 161 gb of space which I can't access until I install a boot loader.

Now I'm talking to Cat (best friend), my msn crashed (again) so I don't know if he got my messages. *sigh*

I think this will do for now, I've gotta read this book otherwise I'll be in deep trouble! :S Oh shit, he's not getting any of my messages :'((((((((((

On a last note: some girl outside just shouted "SALLYY, SALLY WANTS YOUR BIG FAT TIT". I live in a classy area.